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Am I Ready for the Next Level of Healing?

Woman thinking

I blink fast to try to clear the blur from the water leaking from my eyes as I contemplate my surroundings. The hustle and bustle around me with voices ranging from joyous laughter to angry banter cause me to reflect on times past. Days of confusion and fear fill my memory of holidays oh so long ago. The aroma of alcohol and drugs are so strongly embedded in my mind that I gag shaking my head to try to dispel the scent. “Mommy, mommy look Santa came!” Yes, Santa only came because the lady at Head Start loved my family and looked out for us when we had nothing. “Mommy why is your eye red?” “It’s okay baby, go play with your new toy from Santa.” Sadly my 6 year old knew why my eye was red but what do you say to a question like that. The smiles of that day were plastic trying to shield the void in my soul and the fear that plagued every waking moment. Under my feet the crunching sound of eggshells filled my ears yet no one could know, no one could see, no one could help.

“Ma’am? May I help you?” The vision center worker broke through my thoughts bringing me back to today. “Yes, yes I’m here to order glasses.”

Driving home from the vision center, my mind reaches back once again to the days of old. Glimpses of my past have been entering my thoughts lately. I know it’s time for yet another process of healing to unfold for me. As soon as I think there is nothing more to work on in my life, God puts His finger on something and says “What about this?” My response tends to be “Let’s put that under the rug and leave it alone” but God says “No”. He always wins, after all, He is God and I am not, He knows best and His timing is perfect. Am I ready for the next level of healing? I hear Him whisper “Yes, my daughter” So with a heavy sigh I say “Yes Lord, let the next level of healing begin.”

What is the Lord putting His finger on in your life? Will you say Yes and let the healing begin?

Let’s Talk About Love

When was the last time you were jealous of yourself?

When was the last time you compared yourself to yourself?

When was the last time you coveted something you had?

Sounds silly right?

So why do we do it to others when Jesus said to love your neighbor as yourself? Hmm never thought about that did you?

In the book of Matthew chapter 22 a lawyer tried to test Jesus and asked him what was the greatest commandment. Let’s read Jesus response:

And he said to him, “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the great and first commandment. And a second is like it: You shall love your neighbor as yourself. On these two commandments depend all the Law and the Prophets.” (‭Matthew‬ ‭22‬:‭37-40‬ ESV)

The second great commandment is “You shall love your neighbor as yourself.”

What is love? Well we know that God is love but what does that mean for us who are human. The Apostle Paul describes love for us:

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. (‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭13‬:‭4-7‬ ESV)

Whoa! Those 3 little verses are convicting aren’t they?

Let’s break them down, shall we.

Love is patient and kind.

So I am thinking that makes me unloving and unkind when I’m behind the woman at the grocery store with 8000 coupons and asking for a price check on 3 items and I only want to buy 1 thing so I’m grumbling and getting angry.

Love does not envy or boast.

So that covers both ends of the same issue really. Don’t get upset because you can’t have what someone else has and don’t be flaunting what you have.

It is not arrogant or rude.

So I’m thinking road rage is not a good thing to have.

It does not insist on its own way.

What? But I’m an American! You know the saying “Have it your way”. Yeah, I’m thinking that only works at Burger King.

It is not irritable or resentful.

But that person just talked down to me and made me upset! Umm, no! Somehow the sermon on the mount comes to mind. That’s Matthew chapter 5, you should read that today.

It does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth.

Doing wrong is like a joke to a fool, but wisdom is pleasure to a man of understanding. (‭Proverbs‬ ‭10‬:‭23‬ ESV) let’s not be fools, amen?
Behold, you delight in truth in the inward being, and you teach me wisdom in the secret heart. (‭Psalm‬ ‭51‬:‭6‬ ESV)
God delights in truth so we should too. Also did you know that Jesus said that He is truth? He did! Let’s read: Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (‭John‬ ‭14‬:‭6‬ ESV)

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

Yes that is a tall order! But it is possible when we have God in our life and surrender to the Lordship of Jesus Christ. Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. (‭1 John‬ ‭4‬:‭7‬ ESV) If you had known me, you would have known my Father also. From now on you do know him and have seen him.” (‭John‬ ‭14‬:‭7‬ ESV)

That’s a lot to chew on today isn’t it. But it’s something I believe we need to get into our spirits. If we are to be the light of the world we will only reveal that light through love. I’m not there yet? Are you?

To be continued.